I worked on my notes until early in the morning, having downed an entire pot of coffee as I poured over the required reading and then looking for how I could interpret with my own words. I only used maybe 3/4 of those notes because I don't like speaking from a script, one of my first risks. I had no idea how exactly everything would come together because no amount of rehearsal will predict where my emotions might take me and what reactions I might get from my audience.
I took a risk my putting those emotions on the line, by showing the class that I wasn't willing to fade into the background. For a lot of people, being confronted by someone that isn't willing to conform to expectations can be unnerving and sometimes even make them hostile. But being shown something new can also make people sit up and take more notice of what you might say or do. I suppose I'll see eventually how effective I was.
Everyone is taking some degree of risk as they stand up and do these talks, because without risk there is nothing to gain. It's also being driven home on just how much each person is standing there for the teams and how they can't act like they just affect themselves. For me, it's about how I need to stop being afraid that things are going to fall apart in my hands.
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